Mariana and I had plans to go out on Friday night. As we were determining good days to go it took a little while to realize it was Valentines Day weekend...oh well, we thought, no big deal. In theory, the two of us going out for a low-key night on the town seems very normal - people do it all the time. However, the surreal-ness of our situations creeps up during times like this and the magnitude of what we're dealing with makes it hard to wrap our brains around.
We were sitting downtown at Victor Tangos having a good time when the parallel of a different time was realized. It's something we would have been doing ten years ago in Lubbock but with a totally different mindset. Who would have thought that so much could have changed in that length of time? Ten years ago we were in college with nothing but high hopes for our futures. We had both met the men we would marry and the world was ours. We led happy lives, loved wholeheartedly and started families. Life was good. Then our husbands died and we were left to fend for ourselves on behalf of our family that remained. So rather than get upset about this, we laughed and we joked. We told happy stories and started making new dreams for our new futures. We talked about how even if we met some cute boys we couldn't have them go to the next place with us because there were too many car seats in the car and no one could fit. And we were thankful that out of everything we could've done that night, we wanted to go out somewhere different and fun rather than meeting at the neighborhood Applebee's or nowhere at all simply for the fact that this weekend is the weekend of love and our loves are no longer with us. Yes, we are the girls in unimaginable situations but we are doing our best to move on and regain some of the footing that was lost. Happy Day of Love, everyone. xoxox