...or get busy dying. Keith and I watched "The Shawshank Redemption" many times and it was one of our favorite movies. In fact, people have asked if that's where we came up with the name Brooks - it's not just in case you're wondering now, too.
I have been missing Keith big time lately. Overall I am doing really well, but I still feel like there is a huge void within me. It's almost as if the more I move on, the more I miss him. But I continue on because that is the girl he married so, in part, I do it for him. Mainly I move on for Brooks but I also do it for me.
I continue to take trips and see friends and plan more fun things to do in the future, but the void remains because the ONE person I want to do these things with won't be joining me. Ever. And that sucks. I have found that the more I do these things the easier it becomes and that leads me to believe that I am healing. However, then I think...am I forcing the process? Am I doing things to propel myself in the right direction? All of the psycho-babble and reasons for doing things is enough to make you crazy without the weight of your problems. But when I cut away the fluff I see the choice I am making: to get busy living. And I'm okay with that. This process takes time and I'd rather get through it living rather than dying. Maybe I'll post some Spring Break pictures when I have the chance. :)